“I know I am a white woman.
I am American.
I have a white name.”
That’s Alana Raddatz.
But after her husband’s suicide in October, Alana realized she needed to change her name.
“When I was a child, I was confused and confused about who I was.
And I had a hard time understanding that people could call me that,” she said.
When Alana was 17, she and her husband adopted a little girl named Eliza.
“She was so tiny and so different,” she told NBC News.
“I think the reason I did it was so that I could say, ‘This is my name, and this is my daughter’s name, because my name is my real name.'”
It took a while for Alana to figure out that her name was not her real name.
But the rest of the family was.
“We had a name system that we had to learn to use,” she added.
“It was hard.
I was scared.
I thought, What am I going to do?
And I think the best thing to do was just to not let that happen.”
After Alana married her husband, she started using the same name as her child, and that was the name that she chose for her family.
“My family and my friends and the other people who were with us called me by that name,” she recalled.
“And it was not really a surprise.”
She had a long journey to get over her past, and she is not ready to forget it.
“I just want to be proud of who I am,” she explained.
“That’s my name.
I think that’s what I’m proud of, and I want people to know that.”
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